Our testimonies are not stories with a beginning and an ending. They are unfolding sagas of a lifelong love affair with the living God.

Lord, let my testimony not only serve to encourage others but also to spur myself on in my pursuit of faith. for Lord you're the Shepherd of my life(:

one smiley for today (:

i dont know why but i think i haven't felt so happy for a long long time.

on friday after serving,
i was feeling very dejected and disappointed with myself and my poor performance.
after losing oppotunities
after falling back in faith
i was given one FINALLY
and i screwed up.
everyday of the wk,
of months,
i've been waiting just for that day.
but i've no one to blame but myself.

i dont think i should give it up,
and my second chance is coming soon in 3 weeks
i'll cherrish it this time.

but things will never be the same again.
they always say,
dont compare urself with others when u serve.
but it's difficult not to when everyone else compares you with others.

then today came.
and i found inspiration in whatever step im going to take next.
i have a BIG DREAM.
it may not realise soon
it may not even realise if i dont have the perserverence.

divine intervention indeed.
after walking into the deep valleys again and again,
i think im finally climbing back uphill.
like finally.
the initial steps are always difficult
and i find myself slipping back to square one again and again.
but as long as i dont give up
the Lord won't give up on me.

so another BEEG SMILEY to my upward climb!=D

for the glory God is really and truly yours indeed(:

Dear Lord,
I'm so thankful that when it feels like no one else understands,
You do.

You understand about being disappointed in people
but You loved them in the midst of that.
Lord, I want to follow Your example.

I'm thankful You know this sadness
is a part of healing from the pain of disappointment.
Give me guidance in handling this
-I trust that You can bring good out of this.

In Jesus' Name, Amen.