the 1st two days of the new year werent too good.
firstly i have a sickening sore throat that makes me feel malaise
and a blocked nose and probably a suppressed fever due to panadol taking for mthly discomfort.
and i couldnt sleep.

which kind of turned me into a badtempered monster.
it was all i could do to suppress it and not flare up.
and worse thing is it's my family members that upset me.

i dont think anyone really realised i was sick,
i dont really want to tell them cos they'll only nag abt how late i sleep everyday
they dont realised i've suddenly been taking aftn naps because im really not feeling well
they buy dinner for themselves without me
they ask me to settle my own dinner FIRST and then SHUNBIAN fetch them home
seriously i think i could have settled my dinner more efficiently by doing it myself
than to call them and get myself into more trouble.

i think no one but a christian can handle this.
well,im not saying i handled it particularly well
because im indeed very upset.
but at least i know that's a God who looks after me.
who made me pretty independent so that at least i can look after myself.
and who cares for me like he cares for the birds in the sky and the flowers in the field.
if not i would have been even more upset,
like i wasnt wanted anymore.

Thank God and glory be to Him.