today, the verse on "love your enemies" also struck me.

when i hear about love your enemies in the past, i didn't think it was that difficult, but i realised it prob was difficult to act it out.

and i guess cos at work now i have this colleague at work whom i really detest. that i realised how i've been acting towards him and also gossiping about him. i was ultra hypocritical in front of him; i speak to him pretty nicely, yet whenever i turn away i just feel this hatred for him and what he did to me.

what really made me really pissed off is that he really ignores me at work. technically i should be happy about it, but im pissed off. so i do the same back to him. but i guess it didn't really make me happy.

i also resent the fact that i had to do unclaimed with him a few times. damn suay i always tell myself. but that aside, i did recall that he's been really nice and helpful at unclaimed when i met with problems.

so.........that day when me steph and tingying were talking about this eating place and he just came in and asked what we were talking about, my 1st instinct was to ignore him. and steph and tingying ignored him too, that made me gloat a little, like, haha!now you're getting the treatment you always give me! but...i decided to be nice and answered him. i guess, im kind of a zui ying xin ruan person, so after i answered him i actually didnt feel any resentment towards him. and when i read "love your enemies" today, i guess i really felt it that day, and it didn't feel too bad. i guess it will take a while for me to truly love him like a friend, but i would want to try. being nice did feel better than bearing hatred anyway. i hope i will be able to persevere in this small lesson in life(: